i'm still feeling so blue. *hais*

it wasn't my fault for what happened. i already tried to be ever so understanding but i'm being taken for granted. what had happened isn't a minor thing that a word 'sorry' can be forgiven. ok, its not that major either.

but i do expect a little more than an apology. like flowers, dinner and maybe a diamond bracelet that i'm eyeing from goldheart since so long ago.

i know dar isn't the sort of guy that will go to such means to please me. however, does he think just by saying 'sorry' and keeping out my way like treating i'm invisible because i wouldn't talk to him help? maybe it does.

i'm a weak woman. i can't stand cold war, silences or animosity. he knows i will surely give in after awhile of 'acting dumb' on his part. yesterday was already somehow a miracle that i can last one whole day and night not talking to him and keeping it cool.

i wish i'm just stronger and ignore him till he feels really sorry and be more sincere in his apologies.

it doesn't take a lot to make me happy again. ok, i'm just joking about the diamond bracelet. actually, if he just come back, look at me in my eyes and tells me how sorry he is, gives me a hug and promise that it won't ever happen again, i would be over the moon already.

having a cold war makes me miserable, lonely and very sad. =( i hope he do something soon. anything. anything that can make me happy. anything that is sweet. anything can that show his efforts to say hes really sorry.